So, here we are in October. My anniversary is on Friday, didn’t make my mini goal but so what!
Where I am at Today:
- Weight 160.5. 5# since last months report.
- BMI 25.9 (still ‘overweight’ but very close to ‘normal’ which is 25)
I weighed 163 when I conceived the girl 7 years ago, so I have bypassed where I was at the end of JennyGate #2. I weigh what I did at the start of JennyGate #1 and like I said previous, I am much flabbier so I don’t even look like I did back then. But shit it was 13 years and 2 babies ago. However, I did wear a pair of size 12 shorts yesterday. Granted they were Gloria Vanderbilt 12’s and her stuff is a little more generous, I bought them so long ago I don’t remember when and I have never worn them, but still Go ME! I started the year a 18/20 and now I am squarely a 14.
To be the magic 25 BMI I need to weigh 155. I try not to pay attention to that, but it’s hard. I am a product of the body loathing culture.
I don’t think I should feel that good about my weight loss though as it is not due to good eating habits and exercise, but rather not eating due to stress and anxiety. This is setting me up on a dangerous path. I deny myself food sometimes even if I am hungry because I am getting positive results and feedback. I know I have to eat, so I only eat dinner because The Hubby is there, but I eat less than I usually do (which isn’t a bad thing really).
Next mini-goal: 150 by Halloween Thanksgiving.
